worst moment of your life so far

[swab]

my 21st birthday, having no money left, I walked home early from a club in central london to where I was living in Lewisham. Got in put a really miserable record on(yep it was a long time ago) so I could feel really sorry for myself, when the money ran out in the electricity meter, so I sat in the dark by myself till morning.

[ecclecticbb]

The closest worse moment was last sunday at 7:30am when I realised I could not dance anymore as Slimelight was closed...:(

But in 1994, I travelled down by car with my boyfriend at the time from Lisbonne down to South Portugal. At some point, the landscape changed dramatically and we realised that there had been a fire in those hills. For about half an hour that we travelled through that desolation, we could not talk and forgot that the punk tape had finished and we needed to load more music. It is a devastating sight to see the effects of a burnt forrest. The sound of nature in this case is quite chilling too...

And every year, in Portugal and Spain, due to high dry temperatures and floor speculation, forrests disappear. LOTS of those fires have been provoked by men. They are happening now.

I just do not want to think about the Amazon and the atrocities committed there...:(

Fck, I feel like crying.

Human being is a failure of creation!

[DerOberst]

Fuck many many many!!
Girlfriend dying of a grand mal epileptic fit!

Having a nervous breakdown at the age of 21 in the mental hospital I was working!!

My awful ex not letting me have acess to my two children!!!!

could go on and on

[swab]

Fuck many many many!!
Girlfriend dying of a grand mal epileptic fit!

Having a nervous breakdown at the age of 21 in the mental hospital I was working!!

My awful ex not letting me have acess to my two children!!!!

could go on and on


I feel positively guilty for having a good life!!

[SP]

I feel positively guilty for having a good life!!
Shit ... so do I, having just read that! :(

[DerOberst]

Shit ... so do I, having just read that! :(
Nahhh just one of them things mate!Pick yourself up dust yourself down,and go on living!!True I have not had an easy time of things,but the good times always outnumber the bad:)

[industrialwarrior]

I can't pinpoint the exact worst moment in my life, but something I do remember which has stuck in my head ever since happened at school.

See, you guys never knew this, but I was bullied at school. Not physically; I'd have preferred that in hindsight as being naturally strong for my size I'd have given as good as I'd got. No: It was emotional and psychological bullying.

I'm quite an emotional soul, I cry easily and wear my moods openly. I guess this is partly why my monthlies sometimes ignite severe low hormonal incidents, why I am so prone to pmt, mood swings, etc.

However, back in January 1989, I'd suddenly lost my Granddad. A day or so later I was in school, obviously upset about it. I can remember the day clearly: walking up the stairs to go to English lesson, the regular bully taunting me from behind. I turned around and told her to leave it out, I'd just lost my Grandfather.

She just said "So?"

How anyone can say that, at a time like that, is beyond me. We were 15 at the time, so she knew.

I'm not sure I can ever forgive her for that. Bullying is bullying, but when the victim is already grieving... I'm sorry, it's inexcusable in my view.

[drunkmonkey]

Having a nervous breakdown at the age of 21 in the mental hospital I was working!!

My awful ex not letting me have acess to my two children!!!!


Can symphasie with you on both those two things mate. I'm in the same boat with my ex wife and well i been working in mantal hospitals for 4 years and know how stressful it is at times especialy having to deal with physical assult after physical assult all day everyday.

[DerOberst]

Ahhh bullied yep I was bullied in my senior years as well!!Because I was a quiet kid who liked to read.I hated football And was not really a joiner!!Hence to say for two years I was mentally and physically bullied,then when it was my third year in school(turning into a fledgling goth)I had enough The guy who bullied me pushed too far So I beat him with a chair!I was suspended for that stunt,yet No one ever bullied me again!!I totally sympathise with you hun!

[industrialwarrior]

Funny you say that Keef, at lunch/break times I'd prefer to go sit in the library, or on the steps to one of the huts that were there at the time... Spent most of my time drawing, as you may/may not know I *am* an artist, just haven't really drawn much in the past few years.
Rather than try and "mix" with people that just didn't understand me nor I them, I felt why should I bother... I was soooooo introverted at school, people that know me now cannot believe I was once a timid shy little thing.
That's the bullying for ya: I just kept my head down and waited for it to go away.

But I was never physically bullied. I started doing arm training in preparation as I'd had enough by the latter years and was ready to answer back and even challenge the girl (Michelle, her name was)... Alas it never happened, and she was a tall lanky thing that I coulda prolly snapped in half given the chance!

Anyhoo, I learned from it. I don't bully others because I know how it feels to be on the receiving end. If I witness bullying I step in and make it stop.

[Antagonist]

Hmm, first off, let me say that I think I have it pretty good!

Yep was bullied pretty badly at school, still get a few flashbacks.

Never felt too bad about losing members of my family who I was close to, but that is partly because I'm quite religeous and don't believe you lose someone when they die (as spiritually, they are still with you), when someone betrays you however....

I digress.

All the same, I was pretty shaken when my mum was given 12 months to live, although the first thought I had was how my dad was going to cope and survive without her.

Since then, just the various freak-outs I had last year. I reacted badly to the pill and became scared to go outside because I was conviced I'd throw myself under a train. Also had paranoia attacks including thinking billboards and other posters were scowling at me.

Other than that, a couple of really bad nightmares left me shaking for several days afterwards. However, one of them led to my first tattoo (my amulet!) and another to a massive Slimelight party bender.

Sorry if my posts are really long today... at least this one has a happy ending!

[PantherModern]

The worst moment of my life really extends beyond more than a mere moment, it was a prolonged period starting with a few events that had a profound impact on me..

It started with a trip abroad with a friend I`d made online, we talked often and I thought we got to know eachother quite well over a period of years, talking daily for quite a lot of that time
we eventually decided to go finally meet up and go on holiday together, sharing an apartment. I was quite surprised a few days before we travelled that this girl decided to warn me that if I tried anything on, she would `kick me in the face`, to which I reassured her, I wouldn`t, going as far as offering to get seperate accomodation to assuage her fears, but she relaxed and insisted we share. One of the things we wanted to do whilst away was to try and re-live a little of the 90`s club life, get some X and dance the night away, it had been something I hadn`t done for almost 8 years, so the idea seemed good.. anyway, whilst we were away, I realised the girl was quite a nasty sort, with little redeeming features and nothing worked out right at all, such a shame.. I almost got busted trying to buy the said Xs.. I got home, relieved the experience was over and that I wasnt going to waste time talking to someone who couldn`t be pleasant for 5 minutes.. a few weeks later someone I`d known years back offered me some X, stupidly, I took em, they were ok, but not what I was used to. A weekend later, I got some more and did those, I swear these weren`t X, they didn`t sit right at all and caused me quite a bit of mental distress, during which, I discovered 8 custom written trojans on my pc, the same ones that had appeared on the servers at work, I flipped out realising that for an indeterminate time, someone had had complete access to every aspect of my personal life, every private conversation (some of the most intimate nature), knew what I liked, disliked, believed etc etc, now, I can understand that to most this wouldnt be such a deal, but I`d made a few enemies in my previous job, one of them had made very serious attempts at ruining my good name and I`d become a very cautious person as a result, so I was convinced that this activity was connected.
Due to the chemicals and sheer horror that every aspect of me was now property of someone else, who`s intent I didnt know, I basically panicked, took a little time off work to recover, however, when I went into work to explain I needed time off, I told a particular lie to exaggerate how much of a state I was in and partially to see if what I said got repeated outside of the person I was talking to..
after returning to work it became apparent that this lie had indeed become topic of conversation, made apparent by multiple ppl commenting slyly to me.. a few weeks later, a series of odd events at work brought me to me knees mentally, so I ended up taking a month off to recover. Call it a breakdown if you will, I couldn`t argue that much. Being strong minded, I got back on my feet and I was stronger than ever. Eventually, I got made redundant and things just haven`t worked out since. The whole experience in the end has been a positive one though, so I got the last laugh, it made me look at everything about myself, change the few petty things I could feel any shame about and deal with negative things I hadn`t had the strength for before all this happened. I know myself so well now, its just such a shame the experience was so harrowing. The people who did what they did to me never got anything of any real value, I`m the only one who has.

[drunkmonkey]

Got to love the work place ethics these days. Work aint how well u do the job it seems but how much bullshit you can stir adn arse u can kiss. kinda sucks dont it

[capt_weirdbeard]

Yarr, thee worst moment of me life would hav te be when me crew & i went te the island of Pharos. We thjought we'd found ourselves a nice bit o undiscovered treasure thar...seems it be undiscovered fa'a reason tho. Bloody Harpies took down three of me men 'fore we'd even known what 'it us! We managed to fight thee lil bastards off, but only ta find that them be the least of our troubles!
I lost near half me crew on that island :( Bloody Krakens took another two as we set sail.

Sure, we got thee treasure, but money dont buy back thee souls of thee fallen :(

[snoww_wwhite]

one of the worst ones happened last week and for once i dont speak of slimelight or the bad music...